Saturday, June 25, 2011

♥24062011♥

It is about 1 o'clock now.
I've no idea with my blog, it seems like dead for a week.
Should do something with it. ya! That is why I am here.

What should blog about?
*brainstorming.....*

Hmmm, let just talk about my lately production.
Before that, I felt proud of myself as I drove 5 of my friends to the destination for recce.
And it is located at Balik Pulau.
How amazed that Celyn Teoh had her very first drive on rough road huh?

But, something that unlucky has happened to us.
Actually all of us don't know where is the destination.
So we kept turning here and turning there, ask for people the way to the place.
And, we realised that all of the buildings over there are way too similar.

Miracle came when we almost mad!
Finally we arrived the destination. *god blessed*

Our knowledge were totally none to the land.
We don't even know a single thing eventhough we always met them in daily.
All of us became 'kampung girl' and 'kampung boy' although we are living in the city.
That is the main purpose why we visit there.

We try to discovered something that couldn't be found in the city.
Seriously, we putting our fully respect to uncle Ho *the owner*
as we can figured out that he really loves the land very much.
*bow*

I gained a lot of knowledge in that small piece land.
In that moment, I did really feel that I am a 'kampung girl'. 
Eventhough it was just a common knowledge, but I didn't know at all.
and I've tried got into their lifestyle.

Their life ain't easy! And quite tough!
But they have the willingness, appreciate and enjoyful!
No matter how hard, they still go on their life.
These attitude are hardly to be found in city nowadays.
Agree?

Now, let you all guess where is the place that we visited! Hah

X.O.X.O
Good night

Friday, June 17, 2011

♥New·Indoor♥

This is my very first shooting session in indoor.
Pretty thanks to my model babyliz.
We've been taken a lot of photos but I think there are just few pieces can be shown.
Because this is the production without preparation.

Oh ya, let me tell you how randomnism we are.

The day was 14th of June.
Accompanied babyliz to somewhere near jetty to collected her parcel
then headed to KFC to had our lunch.

After that, supposed to attend the Radio News class but it has cancelled in a sudden
So end up I decided to have indoor photoshoot with babyliz.

Seriously, the outcome that without preparation is always FAILED.
So the new production do.
But some of them still considered as acceptable.

After the photoshoot session, we went to James Foo to had our dinner.
It was my first time been there.
Love the enviroment and the foods as well.
The only thing that I don't like was you have to wait a long time to get your food.

I wonder how long we never met each other, and when is the last time I met her?
Perhaps the previous shooting session.
Cam-whored and gossip... Ya, girl's lifestyle.

After dine, babyliz said she doesn't feel like going back so soon.
Guess how randomnism we are?
She drove all the way from tanjong bungah till Queensbay Mall.
While we passed by Tutti Frutti, she straight stopped her car and parked aside.
Then we moved on to Tutti Frutti to have our talks again.

Owh-my-gawd, my babyliz is just way too RANDOMNISM!!

Anyway, we did really have a great talks to each other.
Those negatives thinking has vanished at the moment when I was enjoying.
Thank you so much my dear.

x.o.x.o

♥碰·还是进行到底♥


我一直都很相信
人的一生 不管是在身理 还是心理上
都是充满着刺激和挑战的

偶尔的小考验 真的会让我来个措手不及
在这一方面 我想承认自己还有很多的不成熟
按耐不住的脾气往往就像火山一样
毫无讯号地“碰...”一声 爆发起来

如果要说出最讨厌自己的哪一部分
我想大声地说
我讨厌自己的不理智!

太过孩子气的自己 有时候真的会得罪好多人
讲话没分寸
说话带点刺
不会太过善待身边的朋友
甚至还有好多好多的缺点 那都是在无意间犯下的
还有多少 其实我都不懂

曾一度很在乎别人怎么去看待自己的眼光
不过现在已经慢慢去学习
对于自己的无心过犯 其实可以不必太认真

我做事会比较干脆 潇洒
因为我明白 如果太过感情用事
那么永远就只会卡在原地 动弹不得

为何要陷入自己设下的圈套?

我记得自己说过那么一句话
我要的 是轰轰烈烈的人生
而不是平淡无奇的

对 哪天我碰上了什么麻烦的问题
我都要努力告诉自己 不可气馁 不可放弃
既然选择了这样一个的生活模式
不管再怎么辛苦 都要进行到底

今天若我遇上什么问题都好
是良性还是恶性
我都要跨越你!

现在我不只想当蔷薇女王
更想当魅力女王

Thursday, June 9, 2011

♥矛盾♥

这个时刻 脑袋盘旋着的
内心却来得一点也不实际
你问我为什么?
呵 我也不懂该怎么去回答你

这几天功课好像机关枪那样
嗒...嗒...嗒...嗒...嗒...嗒...嗒的
这些都不懂压死了我多少的细胞

紧接下来的日子
嗯 是重要时期
有好多份的访问
讲演会 小考
还有新的制作要拍摄

想说
活该吧你
一天24个小时竟然也不会分配

8个小时睡眠
8个小时工作
和8个小时休闲
24小时这样分配不就很公平了吗?

也对!
不过现在对我而言
8小时的工作时间应该延长至12个小时
无可奈何必须牺牲掉2小时的休闲时间
这下就算不愿意 也得点头了

虽然这样会很累人
没有休止符 不懂何时会窒息而死
辛苦 但我一点都不痛苦
反而觉得生命就是应该充满刺激和挑战

不用说了
女人本来就是善变的动物
矛盾

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

♥幸福♥

亲爱的,我回来喽!
那么多天没更新,那是因为我去了教会的巡回表演
Puchong, Kota Damansara和Port Dickson
照片挑选了就会放上来和大家分享

其实一直以来都好像忽略了幸福的定义
对你来说 幸福又是什么?

和男/女朋友牵着手 到处旅行
生日有最重视的人陪伴 不会孤单
爱的人天天在身边 无时无刻都在
就算全世界的人都不喜欢你 身边有个人牵着你的手
那就足够了

这些 也许对你而言
它就是幸福!

但是我发现,原来幸福不只是男朋友才给得了我的
家里才是最温暖 最幸福的!
妈妈是我幸福的理由!

想知道为什么吗?

因为当人生到了某一个阶段
都会有不同的事情,不同的压力环绕着我们
也许是因为上了大学赶死人的功课
也许是因为上了社会忙死人的工作
也许是有了爱情滋润,天天蜜糖的生活

这一切会使我们渐渐的与家人产生隔离
现在的你 是不是开始慢慢减少和家人见面的机会呢?

我很庆幸还在自己的家乡读书
但有某些原因,我也很少和家人沟通
这是我一直以来觉得愧疚的事

令人意外的,妈妈让我参与教会的领航巡回演出!
虽然只有短短的3天
那里又有很多大人在,不会很危险
但我还是有一直发简讯给妈妈,告诉她我的情况
避免她担心

这一趟的服侍,更加让我清楚看见
自己是有多么的幸福!

平常不在家,和朋友外出也不会去关心家里
当一离开,却不自主地发简讯起来
收到妈妈的来电和简讯的时候真的很窝心

一直不断提醒我不要到处乱走,要小心
担心我钱不够用
这个,那个的

从Port Dickson要回来的时候,妈妈打了通电话给我
告诉我要到家的时候拨电话告诉她
可是当我到达槟城的时候已经接近凌晨4点钟
一向来不喜欢半夜被吵醒的她
竟然愿意守候着门口等我回家

那个时候我真的很感动
半夜回到家还有家人愿意为你守候门
那是一件很幸福的事!

那一刻,我不懂该怎么去形容自己的心情
除了感动,就是幸福!

妈妈,我真的很爱你!

*小学的华语,不好意思*
*我只是想表达我很爱我妈妈*
*还有,我是很幸福的*

Friday, June 3, 2011

♥痛·长♥

这个夜晚 好似来得漫不经心
原来哭着哭着 都是时间一直在陪伴着我
这样一来 也许我并不是一个人的
至少时间 它 一直都在跟随我的脚步

是的 我又哭了
逞强已久的心 开始慢慢动摇
好像随时都快跨掉一样

脆弱 也许那才是我真正的一面
我讨厌伪装 但实际上我却把面具挂在脸上
或许是我不愿意让别人看透自己
所以筑起一道厚厚的城墙

也或许是太爱面子
所以不愿让别人看见最狼狈 最颓废的自己
就算再怎么辛酸
捏一捏大腿 咬紧牙龈 笑笑带过就好

因为在别人面前
我总是扮演不愿低头 不会示弱的蔷薇女王
就算面对再大的挫折 我也会想尽办法破除患难
不会让自己逊色

但这份执着和精神 现在到底往哪儿去了?
看着镜子倒映出的自己
竟是颓废 示弱 沮丧 意志消沉 自甘堕落
种种负面的自己

原来我没大家想象中那么的坚强
还是 我勇敢太久 现在开始懦弱了起来?

这个世界总是事与愿违
即使打过算盘也好 有过预知也好 当事情发生的一瞬间
仍然会有莫名的感伤 和忧愁

不停地问自己
这 这到底是我吗?
我几乎快认不清自己!

目前所发生的一切 是我想要的吗?
当初的那些梦想呢?
还没开始实现就想毁灭
还没开始努力就想放弃

不,这不是我!

不过 从这一刻开始
我要找回热血沸腾 有梦想执着的自己
那些不愉快的 我受够了!

你给的考验太过强大 这次一时的气馁
是我的疏忽放纵!

不过值得感恩的是 这些考验都让我成长了
不管明天以后还有多大的考验迈向我
我都不再惧怕

因为
蔷薇女王回来了!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

♥Randomly♥

Hello readers
as if you stalked me in facebook then you'll know I've my new hair color yesterday.
It is Light Blonde.

For the first impression, it was really shocked me,
because the color are just too bright.
I was regretted that time, but trying to get used to it.

Then, off to Victory to helped out my friend as being makeup model.
Tadaaaah!
Make up is the magic!
Well, if im not putting any cosmetic on my face
you'll see a zombie! Im serious.

And this was taken while waiting my dear at college carpark.

Well, should stop crapping and off to to do my assignment.
Bye readers.
Wait for my next post then.

L.o.v.e  Y.o.u  A.l.l