❤ 犯贱 ❤

女人啊

干嘛要那么作践自己？

干嘛老是被男人骑着？

为什么对着自己的男人会瞬间变得那么软弱？

他 只不过是一个男人

讲的话怎么可以有那么庞大的影响力

让一个女人的情绪动摇

天啊 这是个什么的世界？

女人 要学会刚强自己

不要犯贱！

一个会让自己女人流泪的男人

绝对不是什么好男人

所以才有什么

男人不坏 女人不爱

到了最后 还不是

女人犯贱 男人得逞

❤ 29052012 ❤

Last semester.

Everyone busy deciding their future

Some of them decided for further studies

but some were decided go work and gain experience.

Yes, many of my friends had done their decision.

2 of my babes have been received their letter of acceptance in Taiwan's Uni.

and the other one has made up her mind move to KL.

I had no idea where should I go after graduated.

Work or Study?

Local U or Overseas?

What would happen if I oversea for further studies?

Can I successfully done my bachelor?

Does my relationship with him still can stay strong?

Can I stand for home sick?

There are so many things to be worried.

What should I do?

Lord, I've lost my mind.

Guide me to what you wanted me to do.

❤ Stay Strong ❤

I am not-so-happy right now.

Or I should say, I'm not that strong enough to accept comment from others.

As the previous post I mentioned, I did not put much afford on it (assignments).

And here is the short video that produced by us.

I know, it's not good, perhaps can label as BAD VIDEO.

Wrong angles.

Not suitable background music

Wrong focus points.

What else?

Actors problem, well this I can't blame them cause they were volunteers for me.

I am appreciate their help, thank you my actors.

However, truth can never be hide.

Some more, it is so obvious that can be see.

Can someone please knock my head and tell me not to care so much?

*Although the boyfie is doing to me now.*

One thing that makes me mad right now.

People, please LOOK carefully here.

Someone was inbox me just now, and she asked for my msn password.

I don't give her but I ask her to like my video on YouTube, and she did it.

After that she keeps ask from me, but I still insist of don't give her.

You know what she did??

She went and dislike my video, I was angry about it and then I go and scold her.

I guess this is what we usually do right?

And then, she COMMENTED on my video

"So stupid video unlike now"

I never seen such people like her.!!!

Back to my story.

Ya, I am so down now after get the comments from other.

Keep on comfort myself that I can improve better next time.

But...

I think I have too much of opinionated, keep wanting people listen to me.

Nah, this is the consequence of that.

I am so sorry my girls.

Since chose to take part and share on Youtube, then should self-prepared well.

Take a breathe, Celyn Teoh!

Just take it as a practice, who never falls right?

Remember to stand up from where you fall and walk forward.!

I can do it.

Yes, I can do it.

❤ Ashamed ❤

It finally comes to last semester for me in college life.

But I still seem so confused with my future, I see nothing bright.

No one wants to be useless.

We all are wish to success as well.

I am one of them.

At this moment, I really hate myself for not doing best since it is already last semester.

In assignment, homework, and many many.

I just completed my assignments perfunctory as long as it can be pass up on time.

What is the point of doing that? I mean why I don't set my goal higher?

Why I never put afford on all these?

It is so ashamed when I saw my classmates did a great production.

Salute, from the bottom of my heart, sincerely.

Why other can make it excellently but I can't?

Is my own problem?

Ya, I definitely think so.

Life is not gonna give you Take 2.

Can someone help to keep remind me of this?

❤ Love.is.in.the.air ❤

Had a very simple meal with da boyfie as the 9th monthsary.

Although it has late for 2 days, still we enjoyed it.

Harvest Inn for dinner and Kiwiberry for dessert

That was how we celebrated.

Simple and lovely, thank you hub.

Today, 20.05.2012

Yea, it stands for 520, means I Love You in mandarin.

How sweet is the date right?

I guess I would never get roses from him.

Fyi, the rose that he biting was made by us last night.

We youths were trying to make 100 roses for today, but too bad it's failed.

Only success made 70 roses.

Thank you for the bro and sis who has spent their night to make this.

Appreciate.

The funny thing was, I purposely waited until 13:14

and then forced da boyfie says to me

"I Love You"

He is cute, yes, I mean it.

"I Love You, too"

Happy 520.

❤ 17052012 ❤

Alright.

This is superb bad luck month for me.

Car accident FOR TWICE.!

Damn it

Felt guilty and pity to that guy.

I'm sorry, you have to pay for my car repair.

God bless me.

❤ The Curse ❤

Do you believe in 'Curse'?

I know as Christian, they won't trust on these kind of thingy.

They do believe in Jesus and all things good.

It is just my own perception, do not take it serious alright people.

I always feel there's a curse, and it always try to wreck up my every relationships.

I've been failed several times before.

I can't blame on this so-called-curse.

Perhaps it was my own problem?

And right now, me and him has been succeed walk through 8months.

I mean, it is the longest relationship I ever had before.

I do really appreciate him, love him and really care for him.

But, the curse has comes to me again.

We kept having quarrels these few months, quite a big fight sometimes.

I am really tired with it, it's really fucked up.

I even felt to give up too.

It always comes to me before month-sary.

Which means, fight always for us before celebration, pissed off right?

How an couple maintain their relationship?

The existence of fight, argument and quarrel can really make the relationship getting better?

Anyway

Countdown to the coming monthsary.

❤

❤ Bad ❤

Actually I have no idea to post up which photo, and I found it on one of my album folders.

So I picked it.

Well, yesterday was a superb bad day for me.

I saw wrong timetable and thought class was starts at 8.30am, and then I went out late.

But luckily I still reached on time.

Then, felt uncomfortable during the class.

Shit, menstrual.!

Class end, fetched my babe back home.

I wasn't in good mood and kept on scolding and complaining.

Reached her house, dropped her.

Thought can back home rest.

The ever worst thing happened in my life.

I had accident, banged on people plants and the vases was under my car.

"Shit!!"

That was the first thing came out from my mind.

They has nothing big deal with their smart car, only a very small scratched and color faded on the engine cover.

 but their 8-years plants gone.

But mine?

Bumper dropped, signal light dropped, car plate broke, and body with scratched

*Heartache*

I called mom, I wish to get help from her, but once she heard I accident

She never concerned about whether I am get injured or not but just hung up my called.

I felt helpless as my mom don't even wanted help me.

She's mad, I know.

End up I settled down by myself.

Small part of scratched and color faded, RM300

To clean and remove the broke vase and plants, RM100

I need to compensate RM400. fml.

On the way home, I texted boyfie.

Once he answered my call, my tears dropped.

I tried to comfort myself before home, but mom doesn't give me a damn.

I ran into my room, cried like baby.

I just looking for her concerns, but she kept scolding me.

Did she knows I'm fear? I wonder.

She don't know, I guess.

Boyfie came after his class.

I wasn't in mood by that time, he fetched me to Domino's with his friends.

They cheered me up, thanks.

Back home, I tried to close my eyes.

But I cant sleep well, the scene will once appears when I wanted to sleep.

Plus, menstrual pain.

Great, nightmare + helpless = D.I.E

I am blessed actually.

Cause I wasn't get injured and didn't really have a big accident indeed

Just a very small case without hurting anyone.

Heartache cause of the compensation.

RM400 fly away.

Yesterday was really a bad day.

My friend lost her iPhone.

I accident.

My ex teacher was involved in politics trouble.

My senior caught because of paste Bersih poster on USM.

Can I have a peace world?

❤ 感受 ❤

近期来 自己真的变了

脾气坏了 情绪不稳了

动不动发脾气 动不动耍性格

我懂 这一路来 辛苦你了

前几天上了一趟好棒的课

虽然只用了那么短短的一小时 但也足够让我更深一层了解自己

由于这项课程是有所保留的

所以在谈话当中也没太深入专研这个课题

人的性格分别为D.I.S.C

根据生活作息来评定是归于那个性格

我 D.I 他S.C

性格虽然是完完全全不合 但以正面思想而言

我们符合了D.I.S.C

以长补短 互相提拔

负面 想可而知

性格不合 做事又不相称

任谁都不会维持关系长久吧？

D 的会比较冲动 I 做事会不顾后果

S 不大积极 C 坚持立场

*以上是根据我个人的立场发言

有何错误 敬请原谅

我曾经想过放弃 因为真的累了

但一瞬间的画面闪过

我发现 我们有太多回忆了

但另一个画面闪过

又觉得 我真的受不了了

人的DNA是改变不了的

就像你改变不了你出生的家庭

但却可以改变生活环境

我尝试融入他的生活圈子 到后来才发现

我们是来自不同的世界

我很矛盾 我不懂下一步该怎么走

或许 我用错了爱的方式

也许 我不应该用自己的方式去爱人

不应该用人的角度去看待每件事情

因为 人会有私心

会因为别人没有跟从你的意愿而不开心

但如果 我是以神的爱 来爱人

以神的角度来看待身边所发生的每一件事

事情的最后是不是会不一样？

除了接受 还是接受

接纳别人和你的不一样