♥领悟♥

今天在教会的领航上领悟到一些的事情

也许是我个人好胜心比较强

在什么时候对于什么事情都要求完美无缺

也就是因为这样，所以每当碰到钉子或则是失败

我都会比任何人来得更容易受挫折，沮丧及失落

其实，我很想把这个坏习惯拿掉

很不喜欢它这样如影随形一直跟着我

就像影子那样，怎么也甩不掉

有些时候在一些场合，一些情况，好胜心是件好事

但过分的好胜心却会搞砸了很多事情

今天在我身上又发生了一些问题

我想，对于其他人而言，它只不过是小事一桩

可是就因为经不起不完美，所以我就一直耿耿于怀

很感谢称赞过我声线好，会唱歌的教会弟兄姐妹

谢谢你们对我的肯定以及赞赏

不过今天的表现，我觉得其实我并没有你们口中说的好

对于今天，我真的很失望

当中我想，求完美的心态又开始作祟了吧？

没有心理准备的演唱，是我最大的弱点

或许对你们而言并不重要，可是我却很在意

常常给自己一个心态

参加了那么多次的比赛，状态应该一次比一次进步

绝对不容许自己出半点错误，绝对不可以！

这个心魔还真的很厉害，就算芝麻小事也可以把我搞得很狼狈

我遇过无数次这样的问题，最后把自己关在房里

不断的责怪，一直的自我谴责

为什么我又会再次失败？

为什么我做不好？

为什么，为什么？

然后好想找个洞然后钻进去，一辈子都不要出来

因为一直认为，失败是件耻辱的事

一次的失败就注定一生的失败

这种毫无心理准备的演唱，是我从来没有想过的

又是第一次，其实内心真的很挣扎

只是万万没想到会是那么的糟糕

不过还是要谢谢大家给我鼓励的鼓掌

不管是安慰还是真心的，都谢谢你们

当下的心情多希望自己是只鸵鸟马上找个洞钻进去

发现自己连最基本的唱歌资格都慢慢的被抹去了

一直的不开心通往回家的道路

默默不语，内心不断的谴责，很痛苦

发了脾气，我知道这一切都不应该

不仅，还和朋友吵了起来

我告诉他：

对，我不是perfect，但至少我是可以表现得比刚才还要好

可是我失败了

机会不是每一次都会有

出现在你面前，你只能选择把握以及呈现出最好，做到最棒

一点丁的错误都不容许

就这样吵翻了！

还好在面子书上遇到宇华大哥

毕竟他刚才也有在教会听到我的歌声

忍不住地去寻求他的意见

听到的还是一样正面的评语

他赠我一句话

从哪里跌倒，就从哪里再爬起来

这其实在很早之前是我安抚自己的一句话

嘴里说会在那里爬起来，可是都无形成了阴影

从来就没实践过跌倒再爬起来

不过，现在我想设立一个目标来肯定自己

那就是从哪里跌倒，就从哪里再爬起来

让人看到一个全新，有改变的我

我领悟到，失败其实并不可怕

因为失败，所以还有很大的进步空间

只是需要花一点点的时间去增进自己！

失败，不要紧，不必怕丢脸

只要下一次做到最好，让人看见你的进步

哪怕就只是0.5分也好

要求高，不是心魔，不要赶走它

它的伴随是好的，只要降低一些些

不要把自己像衣服那样挂得那么高就好

人在很多时候都要学习厚脸皮

只有厚着脸皮，你才可以学习得更多

不要怕它当作无耻，其实在很多方面厚着脸皮是最有效的

我已经慢慢的从中领悟

而你在生活上又领悟了些什么呢？

♥28032011♥

今天星期一，也就是说还有6天就要开学

4天就领成绩了

说不担心也是假的吧？

这一次的CGPA怎样也要死出个3.0，要不然出国的梦想马上就破灭了

都怪之前的考试都不做足功课，后悔了

真的！

这个就先别讲

说回我的女王城市！

真的谢谢我的伙伴Min把这个做得那么棒

不管是面子书户口还是blogshop的背景

每一样都做得很棒，很漂亮

真的很谢谢她

身为她的伙伴，可是却没帮上什么忙

真的有一点愧疚

不过在生意上还是有帮到一点的小忙啦

原来我还不至于那么糟糕！=P

所以今天blog的目的就是推销我们女王城市的产品喽！

之前仅有面膜，香水，服装还有lens

不过现在的女王城市已经慢慢推进一些女性用品

像是BBcream还有甲片之类的

放下你们的一百颗心

我们售的绝对是正品，不会欺骗所有女王对我们的信任

BBcream是来自韩国美人的Skin79

Lens也同样来自韩国批发

美美的甲片是来自日本的纯手工制造

还有来自于台湾的面膜，服装等

女王城市！

永远给你至上服务

♥26032011♥

After vs Before

Withou make up vs Make up

After haircut vs Before haircut

Younger vs Matured

S my dear reader, which one you prefer the most?

* Just ignore the dark circle, freakin' panda look man ='(

Alright, I had my haircut yesterday, chopped off the spoil ones.

It looks freakin' short now, damn regret to chopped the fringe!

Sad but nee-mind, my hair grow very fast, no worries =)

今天的blog post会比较商业化一点

最近和伙伴Min都一直在想要怎样才可以赚到钱

虽然说我们合股开了网购，生意是有了

可是利润还不能支付生活费还有学费

商场如战场！

想了好几个晚上，终于做出了不少的策略

万事起头难，这一点我很赞成

没有人一生下来就是个生意人

一点一滴的累积是所有生意人背后的故事

不要妄想，也不要太天真

心急的态度往往都是失败的种子

只有付出，才能看得见成果

只有努力，才能看得见成功

最近我也开始接触某种的生意

放心，不是不正当的！

在这个时候我不会公开，因为我知道没有成绩的产品

说出来有多么大的业绩也不会有人相信

只有实际的证据，才能获得别人对你的信赖！

我希望有利益的东西可以和我所有的朋友们一起分享

目前我的3位姐妹已经加入这行生意！

我会以最快的速度让她们回本，以及赚取更多的利润

如果你对这个产品有意思的话，可以email我

celyn_teoh5129@hotmail.com

我会带你到我们的公司去，让你亲自了解以及询问更多的你的疑问

而且我们的专业人士会一一的帮你解答！

有我的手机号码的朋友们，可以随时call还是sms给我

我保证这不是不正当的生意！

UPSR/PMR/SPM的学生更是无任欢迎！

想要赚取更多的外快？

马上行动吧

♥25032011♥

其实我也不懂该怎么去形容现在的心情

满脑子在漂浮的 也不懂是什么东西

想冷静却无法停止犹豫的心

我想我很快就会被逼疯了

早在几天前已经被左右选择逼得发狂

没想到才过几天罢了，又来一宗这样的事情

说实在，我很讨厌天秤座的犹豫不决

因为它总让我很困扰

常常听到说

不要让眼前的机会溜走

现在我看见了，很想紧紧地捉住

可是却无能为力

你们知道吗？这种感觉真的很不舒服！

给自己多点时间，我会证明一切的

♥22032011♥

这个夜晚

我只想静静地 静静地聆听自己的内心

看看是否能把最真的自己给找出来

我需要的 是真正的自己

我要了解真正的自己需要些什么

盲目的扛了好多好多的不必要

伪装也渐渐的成了习惯

无形的压力就只有在卸下面具才觉得喘不过气

该与不该

我只能努力的告诉自己 不要再逞强了

♥21032011♥

It's 21.03.2011

which means there is still left 2 weeks to go and I'll start my college life again.

I was so so blank with my holidays

What else that I've did in this past few days? No idea.

Opps, should start to worry bout' my result. terrible

So, just let me recall back about how I've spent my time during the holidays.

Kinda blur, sorry.

Oh ya, that is my lil princess- Xuan. Adorable isn't?

She came and stayed at my house few days ago.

Look at her, she sat inside the bucket and my lil brother brought her hang around the house corner.

I felt sad when she was about back home, I miss you badly my lil princess =(

I am back to CO! *chinese orchestra

Received a letter from them, and they requested me to go back and help them in the coming competition.

Nothing special to share about, just practice, practice and practice.

And then, went back to college to helped out the decoration of Opening day on 17th/18th of March

Lecturer treated us PizzaHut on 18th after went back home take a short nap

Mom woke me up because wanted me to order Pizza for my 2 brothers.

At the same day, I ate Pizza for my whole day meal.

19th of March

Went to college as helper for Han Chiang College Opening Day.

Ignore the face, its freakin' ugly!

Me and Shermin were dutied as the booth of Photography.

Luckily Vanessa came to accompanied us, if not we might boring-till-die.

My dinner.

We had steamboat as our dinner

Again, its a tummy bloated night, uncomfortable

20th of March

We weren't duty as take care of the booth but be Deejay.

Something happened, don't feel like saying out over here. forget about it.

Maybe the sudden crashed and I lost my way, my origin plans =(

Deejay Celyn and Shermin.

Honestly, I was feel disappointed on my performance.

The result shouldn't be like this.

Blame myself mess up all the things >.<

Im wondering is it this career is suitable for me?

After 2pm, the talks take over us, and then we hung around and took our lunch.

I'm type of easily get emo if you really know me well.

Couldn't be cheer up because of the performance, but still pretending.

Back to stadium and continue playing with Panda's game.

I drew Panda's hand while Shermin plays the game

Stupid Panda washed away the Lorex I drew for him, hurt me so much.

Don't want friend with you already =P

I thought he is nice guy, who knows he revenged and drew back my hand!!

And now, I knew he is Bad Guyyyyyy!!

The story of my holiday is still remains.

I believe the coming 2 weeks sure got lotsa thingy will happened.

Stay tuned with my blog then.

Pretty thanks to spend your lil time to read it.

Will be updates soon. XD

♥18032011♥

严重气不顺，连3字经都想拿出来飙了

好，算我遇人不熟，撞上个野蛮人！

是我没见过类似这样的人类还是他来自火星？

当全世界的人类在抗议的时候

我不反驳不表示我赞同

我不说话那是因为我觉得我没必要把自己陷入困境

所以选择走开

而当我已经决定做某些事情的时候

请你不要插手，因为你的帮忙，我会觉得是多余的！

不要说我不把你看在眼里

那是因为你有太多太多的blacklist

所以我是有权服从大队！

你，算不了什么

不要把自己捧到那么高

一厢情愿只会让人更讨厌你！

不只是别人，我也会

讨厌你一幅自以为是的样子！

你懂什么是恶心吗？！

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♥拍♥

今天不懂发了什么疯，把自己化成这个妆，有那么的一点小恐怖！鲜艳的口红，果然不是我的style，还是清纯点适合我！对不，我的readers ？可是我本身是很够力的喜欢艳红色，可惜涅，化在我的嘴唇上就是NO ！

回来回来，看到我的blog header了吗？我超喜欢的说，谢谢我那个可爱又帅气的弟弟啦，花了他几十分钟帮我拍。虽然不是很满意，不过还接受得去！憧憬这一系列的照片，终于有机会尝试啦，不错不错。可是修改技术有待加强，发现自己的edit skill很差很差！不行，我需要再继续努力了！

这张是有点吓人，不好意思啦！把假睫毛脱掉，把红红的口红擦掉，把衣服也换掉！看来我是比较适合走淑女风，呵呵呵！最近因为有杀手追杀[考试啦]，所以连夜落跑，搞得黑眼圈很深！可我是爱马来西亚的哦，虽然样子逐渐偏向中国 XD

下下个星期日和表姐有约，主要目的是和他们到海边拍摄！很棒很棒，有机会让我学习一下怎样用我家Canon 550D拍出更棒的作品！希望老天不要下雨，拜托拜托！今天听到坏消息，日本的地震吞噬了不少的生命！是预兆吗？是世界末日要来临了吗？不管怎样，为这些不幸的人们祈求祷告！

哦对对对！明天一早要去出席赖生的记者会，都不懂现场的情况到底是怎么样的！有一点期待哦！不说还不知道，已经12来了，我还在blogging，要快点结束然后好好去睡个觉喽！小公主已经在我的床熟睡了，卡瓦伊！

临睡前送给所有的readers

晚安♥

'XOXO'

♥Hey hey hey, Imma back!♥

Hello my honey, darling, cutie, sweetie and dears... I'm back! So as what I've promised, will blog bout my lil brother's bday post after finished my stressness-hell-darn exam. So here I am.

Just now I was so depressed after came out from the examination hall. Honestly, I don't likey microeconomics, but I never said No to it. But somehow I've tried to understand it, when the exam paper came to me just now, I was like Oh-my-GOD, I don't understand at all. >.<

After walked out from the examination hall until arrive home, my world was like silent and peace. Don't feel like talking and just like dead body there. I don't even know how to release the stress that deeply in my heart and just being quiet all the time.

Until few minutes ago, I tried to spread my stress out through sing the china song. Kinda like shouted and high pitch!*search with youtube. Alan阿兰-我的月光.  After sing and sing, and finally the tears rolled down! Don't worry, Im okay right now =)

My pretty mom, she cut her hair and now everyone says she is my sister. Blue Tee brother, also the Bday boy on that day. And then my uncle kheng. Sweet. 

Sorta like Yam Dumpling. Don't judge the food by its look, this one really taste good. Feel like eating again. Won't post all the photos over here, but if you're interested, can go to my facebook album to get a look. And ya, Im just a newbie on shooting, is still in progressing.*credits to my baby canon 550D, hopefully can take more and more memories in my life.

Any cheezy lover over here, my dear readers? If you are, I recommanded you to try this. There are full of cheese inside there. Really nice. Everytime we went Tao, Im the one who helps them to take order, because I have been worked in Japanese restaurant before, but this time I was just sit beside and eat! Lolz. Spent almost 2 hours there, and our stomach was bloat but all these are worth because our main purpose is to celebrate the lil brother bday.

Pretty mom posing before we got to leave. This photo made her like pregnant woman, but actually my mom is very slim, even slimmer than me!

Before end post, here I'm going shout!

HOLIDAYYYYYS NOW!!!

♥'Night' before♥

Photo was taken before off to Autocity Tao.

Had a yummy and tummy bloat with my beloved family tonight because of my lil brother bdayy.

And Im here to say:

Happy Bday my didi ♥

Well, I'm going to turn off my blogging mode and switch it on after my exam.

Stay tuned my dearest readers, just put some patient to my blog.

After finish my stressness exam will blog more bout today.

I PROMISE IT!

Now continue to fight for my finals, tomorrow will be the day.

God bless and wish me luck for the 3 days examination.

I will do whatever-my-best to achieve good result this time!

For those sitting exam tomorrow, may god blessing!

♥Another night fight for my finals♥

It's another night fighting for my final exam, reading and try to memorize the lousy Malaysian Studies. This semester is really full of stressness, all of my friends has been started their revision 1 week ago, and I myself only did half. Going to die soon, i mean it.

I keep telling myself, 'Just bear it, after exam you'll be free!' So, all the best to everyone! God bless. Continue to fighting for finals.

♥Fight for finals♥

By this time should be doing my Malaysian Studies revision, but I've no idea that why am I blogging right now?  Is very boring to study about history, I'm pretty sure that ya'll might have same thinking as me right? *sigh... Super double don't likey it, but have to complete everythin's by this week still.. And this time my gpa at least have to get 3.0 above, or else it might be very hard for my further studies, especially for overseas. C'mon, i rather you kill me, seriously.

No point to complaining now, continue to study *Oops, should be memorize. Although tomorrow 8am still have to attend microeconomic class. See, this is what that making me hate short-sem a lot. Because no study week, no sem break*except for the CNY public holiday and then directly go for finals. How am I going to sit for the exam God? I don't want to failed any subject, heard what the senior has told me, once failed a subject, and we'll miss the chance to training industry... Ohhhh nooooooooooooooooo.

So now have to finish my blog as fast as I can, nothing else to crap. Just don't wish my blog to be dead, although it has been dead for few days ago. Alright, wish me Happy Study and Happy Exam.♥